Ugh. That’s all I can say.
Last week I was solo parenting, and I don’t know if it was the exhaustion factor or just some weird alignment of the stars, but I felt like crap. Very very anxious. In fact, I think I was having a series of panic attacks, if the filmy sweat that covered my skin when my heart stopped racing was any indication.
I’m not sure what brought it on, but I know it all stems back to the (un)health(y) episode I had when the Sproglette was a few weeks old, and I ended me back up in hospital. I’m now a total hypochondriac and it both drives me nuts because I know it’s irrational, and drives me nuts because I stress about what ailment it is that I have, that will definitely do me in this time.
Yep, I’ve been a bit screwed in the head.
The past couple of days have been much better. I joined a gym and have been doing exercise for the first time since I was about 5 months pregnant. I am thinking of joining Weight Watchers so I can lose this awful excess 10 – 15 kgs I have that I know just don’t belong there… But I just don’t have the motivation at the moment (probably a good reason to join then, I’ll leech my motivation from others).
So, after my declaration of new ‘structure’ to my blog, I’ve totally bailed out. Oh well, it’s my blog and I’ll run dry if I want to.
Perhaps it is a weird alignment of the stars thing, as my favourite ‘mom’ blogger is also feeling a bit ugh it seems.
Til next time – hopefully I’ll see youse on Friday.
And in other news – my favourite Ukrainian guy bloggers are BACK! Yay for Zhenya and Dima!